Wednesday, June 03, 2009
Maybe...
I read on another blog about starting a journal with whatever little accomplishment she deemed blog-worthy being written and maybe photographed. I thought it might be worth a try because things have been rough for a year now and I need to start finding little things I do right, rather than replaying the mistakes I've made over and over in my head. I'm not going to promise this will be daily but I'm hoping that I can do this several times per week.
I had my sister over for dinner last night. I was worried that the food would be something she wouldn't like, was a little concerned about cooking lactose-free, thought the house would be a wreck, in general just feeling incompetent when I compare myself to her. At almost 9 years younger than me, she just had the most perfect wedding, graduated with her Bachelors' Degree in Speech Pathology and Audiology, and bought a house. She's just so driven to do things in just the right way, has an amazing sense of self-discipline and such a strong will. You know, all things I struggle with. BUT I did have her over for dinner, didn't feel too inadequate during the visit and we had a really good time talking and being grown-up married women together. She liked dinner enough to ask me to write out the recipe so she could make it for Josh. *Whew!*
I took Seth and Bella to the park today. I'm not good about getting the kids out of the house and off on explorations. No, really not good as in this park is only 2 blocks away down a paved walking path that I love to walk. There is a really fun water feature there that was just turned on this week for the first time and the kids had a great time. Bella never even played anywhere else, just spun and splashed and spluttered through streams of water. There were a couple of young toddlers stumbling through the puddles and falling onto their diaper-cushioned bottoms. I took a book so that I didn't have to talk to the other moms (not over the social anxiety thing, I'm just better at pretending) but I exchanged grins with both of the little splashers that toddled around my feet. All in all, I think I did pretty well but my expectations are set very, VERY low. ¶ 11:12 PM
I had my sister over for dinner last night. I was worried that the food would be something she wouldn't like, was a little concerned about cooking lactose-free, thought the house would be a wreck, in general just feeling incompetent when I compare myself to her. At almost 9 years younger than me, she just had the most perfect wedding, graduated with her Bachelors' Degree in Speech Pathology and Audiology, and bought a house. She's just so driven to do things in just the right way, has an amazing sense of self-discipline and such a strong will. You know, all things I struggle with. BUT I did have her over for dinner, didn't feel too inadequate during the visit and we had a really good time talking and being grown-up married women together. She liked dinner enough to ask me to write out the recipe so she could make it for Josh. *Whew!*
I took Seth and Bella to the park today. I'm not good about getting the kids out of the house and off on explorations. No, really not good as in this park is only 2 blocks away down a paved walking path that I love to walk. There is a really fun water feature there that was just turned on this week for the first time and the kids had a great time. Bella never even played anywhere else, just spun and splashed and spluttered through streams of water. There were a couple of young toddlers stumbling through the puddles and falling onto their diaper-cushioned bottoms. I took a book so that I didn't have to talk to the other moms (not over the social anxiety thing, I'm just better at pretending) but I exchanged grins with both of the little splashers that toddled around my feet. All in all, I think I did pretty well but my expectations are set very, VERY low. ¶ 11:12 PM
